One year.
It's been a year since I was in the hospital.
A year since I fainted, went on my first ambulance ride.
A year since the ER doctor sent me home and my fever spiked.
A year since I went back the next day and stayed for a week.
A year since my fever was consistently over 105 for four days.
A year since Emily and I watched SVU from my bed because the nurses didn't want me to sleep.
A year since I realized my health is not my own.
The days I was shuffled between ER beds, and hallways, and scans, and hearing beeps but not feeling what has happened still ring in my head. I feel the strength of how much can change in a years time today more than I can explain in words. Maybe it's because I'm sitting here at Camino with my Chai Spiced Hot Chocolate or that I can see my breath when I walk outside. Whatever it may be I am thankful.
Thankful that a year later I can say I did not loose brain function. And I haven't been to the hospital in over six months. More than that, I am thankful that no matter how distant I feel, or how much I doubt my own strength, or if I feel dizzy that the perception of distance is only perceived.
I am reminded daily that I was created with a stamp of perfection by the One who weaved my story, and knows my faints, and strengths.
And for that, I am forever thankful this year has changed in every way I could ever imagine.
It's been a year since I was in the hospital.
A year since I fainted, went on my first ambulance ride.
A year since the ER doctor sent me home and my fever spiked.
A year since I went back the next day and stayed for a week.
A year since my fever was consistently over 105 for four days.
A year since Emily and I watched SVU from my bed because the nurses didn't want me to sleep.
A year since I realized my health is not my own.
The days I was shuffled between ER beds, and hallways, and scans, and hearing beeps but not feeling what has happened still ring in my head. I feel the strength of how much can change in a years time today more than I can explain in words. Maybe it's because I'm sitting here at Camino with my Chai Spiced Hot Chocolate or that I can see my breath when I walk outside. Whatever it may be I am thankful.
Thankful that a year later I can say I did not loose brain function. And I haven't been to the hospital in over six months. More than that, I am thankful that no matter how distant I feel, or how much I doubt my own strength, or if I feel dizzy that the perception of distance is only perceived.
I am reminded daily that I was created with a stamp of perfection by the One who weaved my story, and knows my faints, and strengths.
And for that, I am forever thankful this year has changed in every way I could ever imagine.