this week has felt like a marathon. and it's only ten thirty wednesday morning. it has been amazing, discouraging, lovely, loooong, and challenging to say the least. i'm sitting here at madhouse coffee in yoga pants, vneck, glasses, and uggs with my hair in an extremely messy ponytail [typical lazy day jessica]
last night i made a promise to myself that i was going to snap out of this funk when i woke up. i set my alarm to go for an early morning run, and when it went off this morning i thought for a second, automatically hit snooze, and tossed my phone [which doubles as an alarm clock in the mornings]. ten minutes later it went off again, but this time i was forced to get up & walk across the room to turn it off. even though it is uber nice out, i just didn't want to muster up the energy to run. so i grabbed my journal, pen, and bible and headed to the pool. in my pajamas. i read. i wrote. and i prayed.
as people walked around me starting their day i could feel things changing. we have been given amazing grace. when we pray, he will answer. it is written all over the bible. prayer is a challenging discipline. and i wasn't in the mood to respect it. i stopped for a moment and just laid there thinking. over analyzing my mood. i need to get out of vegas. i need to clear my mind. i need a vacation.
i felt myself failing.
i'm struggling to write this post. i have been typing, and backspacing sentence after sentence after sentence. i think that this always happens when i have too much to say, and even more to write.
i have walked away from this week and it's only wednesday.
i don't know why. i have absolutely nothing to lose & everything to gain. i am thankful for the words, and prayers that have been placed on my heart during these times. i am thankful for the vision given to me for my present. i am thankful for the trust he has in me for my future. i am thankful i will never have to walk alone.
be strong and courageous. do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for he will be with you wherever you go. joshua 1:9
last night i made a promise to myself that i was going to snap out of this funk when i woke up. i set my alarm to go for an early morning run, and when it went off this morning i thought for a second, automatically hit snooze, and tossed my phone [which doubles as an alarm clock in the mornings]. ten minutes later it went off again, but this time i was forced to get up & walk across the room to turn it off. even though it is uber nice out, i just didn't want to muster up the energy to run. so i grabbed my journal, pen, and bible and headed to the pool. in my pajamas. i read. i wrote. and i prayed.
as people walked around me starting their day i could feel things changing. we have been given amazing grace. when we pray, he will answer. it is written all over the bible. prayer is a challenging discipline. and i wasn't in the mood to respect it. i stopped for a moment and just laid there thinking. over analyzing my mood. i need to get out of vegas. i need to clear my mind. i need a vacation.
i felt myself failing.
i'm struggling to write this post. i have been typing, and backspacing sentence after sentence after sentence. i think that this always happens when i have too much to say, and even more to write.
i have walked away from this week and it's only wednesday.
i don't know why. i have absolutely nothing to lose & everything to gain. i am thankful for the words, and prayers that have been placed on my heart during these times. i am thankful for the vision given to me for my present. i am thankful for the trust he has in me for my future. i am thankful i will never have to walk alone.
be strong and courageous. do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for he will be with you wherever you go. joshua 1:9